It’s been a full two weeks!!! Being a teacher is a lot of work, just setting up a classroom, but is made even harder by having to share the space with a very wonderful lady, but is totally opposite in decision-making!!! Oh well life goes on! Now that my room is done, I have the wonderful task of making my lesson plans and it’s not as easy as it looks, it so hard to come up with activities that aren’t all work sheets, I want them to have all different types of learning. I am so glad that Monday is a holiday!!!
I had open house on Friday and it went very well, there was a moment of panic as five families arrived at one time and it was just me, but I already have wonderful moms who are already to help, I even have one mom who is ready to cut and trace stuff for me at her house!!! It’s so weird for me to be the one giving the work out, I am so used to being the one to do all the prep work, so it will be nice not having to do it all!!!
On top of starting my new job and being nervous about going to school and working… there has been a lot on my heart.
God has brought so much healing to my heart this summer, but there are times that it still hurts so bad, that I can’t think about anything else, that I don’t want to face it (yes there are issues that need to be dealt with one day). I am just not ready!
There are many many moments when I wish with all my heart that special someone was in my life, the one God has chosen for me, but then there are times when I get scared that what happened to parents and those who I know have gone through the same thing will happen to me and I wonder what the point is, and there are also those times when I am completely happy and couldn’t possible find the for a relationship. With all of these emotions going through me, some all at one time, it’s hard to see at times, what God wants for me.
The more time I sit at His feet the clearer things are, and it’s sad to say but that has been the hardest thing, I have been so exhausted, that the most important thing has been the last thing I have done. Pray that I find the time to sit at His feet!!!
Sorry if my thoughts are all jumbled up, but that is usually what happens when I don’t get my normal sleep, (or at least the sleep my body has been used to all summer, and that is now over).
That is all for now, I have so many more thoughts, I just can’t think through them all right now!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Saturday, August 16, 2008
To God Be the Glory
Ephesians 3:20
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory…!
I am so excited!! I have my first job at a pre-school, not only will I be an aide but I will also be teaching my very own class!!! I had always figured that my first job at a pre-school would be an aide position, but when they offered me both I was blown away and the verse in Ephesians kept coming back to me over and over again, in my wildest dreams I never dreamed what the Lord provide!! He knows best!! In every situation, from the most unbelievably amazing to the most heart breaking, devastating situation, no matter how dark or joyous He Knows Best!!!!
Pray for me as I prepare, that as these little lives come into my classroom that I am aware of each of their needs!! I am so excited, yet very nervous!!
To God Be the Glory!!
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory…!
I am so excited!! I have my first job at a pre-school, not only will I be an aide but I will also be teaching my very own class!!! I had always figured that my first job at a pre-school would be an aide position, but when they offered me both I was blown away and the verse in Ephesians kept coming back to me over and over again, in my wildest dreams I never dreamed what the Lord provide!! He knows best!! In every situation, from the most unbelievably amazing to the most heart breaking, devastating situation, no matter how dark or joyous He Knows Best!!!!
Pray for me as I prepare, that as these little lives come into my classroom that I am aware of each of their needs!! I am so excited, yet very nervous!!
To God Be the Glory!!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Our Strength Comes From God!!!
Ephesians 3:16-21
16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. 20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
I just wanted to share what God showed me today through His word!
We all go through trying, challenging and even heartbreaking times in our lives… as one of my wonderful friends shared in her blog today… that God has us all right where He wants and nothing that happens to us before it is cleared by Him… at times this may cause us to question God and ask the age old question of WHY? I have had many moments this past year of asking why?, I can say though that I still don’t have answers… but the closer I walk to God, the clearer I see and the why’s at times don’t seem to matter as much. A wonderful book that I am reading right now, is written by a man who right now he and his family are facing the most devastating time in their lives, but is still able to say “I Still Believe”!, Greg Laurie: Why God, is the most down to earth biblical book I have ever read! I encourage you that no matter what you are facing it is an awesome book!! Also sign up to recieve his daily devotional right to your e-mail!!!
There is no better place to be then at His feet!!!
16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. 20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
I just wanted to share what God showed me today through His word!
We all go through trying, challenging and even heartbreaking times in our lives… as one of my wonderful friends shared in her blog today… that God has us all right where He wants and nothing that happens to us before it is cleared by Him… at times this may cause us to question God and ask the age old question of WHY? I have had many moments this past year of asking why?, I can say though that I still don’t have answers… but the closer I walk to God, the clearer I see and the why’s at times don’t seem to matter as much. A wonderful book that I am reading right now, is written by a man who right now he and his family are facing the most devastating time in their lives, but is still able to say “I Still Believe”!, Greg Laurie: Why God, is the most down to earth biblical book I have ever read! I encourage you that no matter what you are facing it is an awesome book!! Also sign up to recieve his daily devotional right to your e-mail!!!
There is no better place to be then at His feet!!!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
My Birthday Was Awesome!!!
Yay!! They did bring me back home, even though i wouldnt have minded not returning for a few days!!
Plans on Friday did not go exactly as planned, but hey that’s life and nothing is what it should be. I still had an awesome time, I was just glad to be out of the of the house with my two very good friends!!!! I hadn’t had that fun much since I was in Virginia with my best friend!! So we were going to go out to Oceanside to the pier for dinner, but the restaurant closes in my opinion way toooo early so instead they took me out to dinner to Temecula/Murrieta, then we were going to go miniature golfing, but dinner took forever, so they owe me miniature golfing or the movies, it way too late to either!!!
That’s all for now, I have had a headache for three days now from my new glasses, so I can hardly think straight, but I will be going tomorrow to see what can be done with them…. If I could I would chuck them out the window, but I do kinda like seeing things/people in the world and I do need to see to drive!!!! UHG!!! Glasses can’t live with them can’t live without them!!!!
Plans on Friday did not go exactly as planned, but hey that’s life and nothing is what it should be. I still had an awesome time, I was just glad to be out of the of the house with my two very good friends!!!! I hadn’t had that fun much since I was in Virginia with my best friend!! So we were going to go out to Oceanside to the pier for dinner, but the restaurant closes in my opinion way toooo early so instead they took me out to dinner to Temecula/Murrieta, then we were going to go miniature golfing, but dinner took forever, so they owe me miniature golfing or the movies, it way too late to either!!!
That’s all for now, I have had a headache for three days now from my new glasses, so I can hardly think straight, but I will be going tomorrow to see what can be done with them…. If I could I would chuck them out the window, but I do kinda like seeing things/people in the world and I do need to see to drive!!!! UHG!!! Glasses can’t live with them can’t live without them!!!!
Thursday, August 7, 2008
21 and Having Fun!!!!!!
Today is my 21st brithday!!!!!!
Okay so it was technically yesterday, because as I write this the clock has struck midnight!!
It was a wonderful day, I went to Disneyland with my mom, and when we got home, my older bronther treated me to ice cream, but the party doesnt end there....
Tomorrow night my wonderful friends are taking me out and I wish I could tell you what we are doing but they refuse to tell me what we are doing!!!! So instead you will be forced to come and read all about my adventure once I return (if I return............................. J/K)
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Let Him Be the Light!!!
Lamentations 3:21-26
21 This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. 22 Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. 23 They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. 24 “ The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “ Therefore I hope in Him!” 25 The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the soul who seeks Him. 26 It is good that one should hope and wait quietly For the salvation of the LORD.
I have been reading the book of Lamentations and chapters 1-2 talk about the judgment God is bringing to the people of Jerusalem. Chapter 3 starts with what Jeremiah (the author of Lamentations) is going through and then in verse 19, he remembers what he has gone through in the past and it only makes him feel worse but starting in verse 21, he remembers all that God had done for him and HIS faithfulness.
No matter what we are facing as long as we keep our eyes on Him, and remember His faithful, the valleys we all go through won’t be as dark, because HE will be the light on our path(Psalm 119:105)
Letting Him be my Light in the valley!!!
21 This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. 22 Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. 23 They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. 24 “ The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “ Therefore I hope in Him!” 25 The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the soul who seeks Him. 26 It is good that one should hope and wait quietly For the salvation of the LORD.
I have been reading the book of Lamentations and chapters 1-2 talk about the judgment God is bringing to the people of Jerusalem. Chapter 3 starts with what Jeremiah (the author of Lamentations) is going through and then in verse 19, he remembers what he has gone through in the past and it only makes him feel worse but starting in verse 21, he remembers all that God had done for him and HIS faithfulness.
No matter what we are facing as long as we keep our eyes on Him, and remember His faithful, the valleys we all go through won’t be as dark, because HE will be the light on our path(Psalm 119:105)
Letting Him be my Light in the valley!!!
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Sweetly Broken
Sweetly Broken/Beautiful Disaster
These are two songs, which right now are the best way to describe how I am feeling, share how I feel, but also talk of the hope I have in Christ.
My parents’ divorce is like a death, the death of a family that will no longer be and with that, death comes a lot of anger, hurt and confusion.
I am past a lot of the confusion and mostly out of the shock and denial stage, but the hurt and anger… its buried so deep within my heart, that I know only God can heal, only through Him can I forgive.
For a long time after my parents told me that they decided not to be married anymore I wanted someone there with at all time, to just hold me, yes my wonderful friends where there me and I love them for it, but they couldn’t be there all time. I would be angry at times that my best friend was 3,000 miles away when all I wanted was her here with me during my darkest hours.... But God ever patient and loving showed me that He was all I needed that it was Him alone that I could walk this road with, and it was defiantly a hard lesson to learn. Because I did not know how to walk alone with Him, this was all new to me I always wanted someone with me, just to listen, to just be there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I didn’t know how to react, what was going to happen, I know for the weeks after announcement I was living in shock… Even though there are times when I just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay, the most blessed times for me were and are when I was walking alone with my Jesus.
We all face giants in this life that feel bigger than our selves, bigger that what we feel are capable of handling, but there are two things I know for sure…
One is something that was shared with me by a dear friend and leader many years is that I am stronger than I know and God will never ever give me more than I can handle. (1 Corinthians 10:13- I know that it uses the word temptation, but I also know that it applies to the situations in our lives)
Two, I have a mighty, powerful, and loving God on my side where there is nothing too big to for Him and there is nothing in my life that hasn’t gone through His hands first.
(Ephesians 3:20, Jeremiah 29:11, Deuteronomy 31:8)
These are two songs, which right now are the best way to describe how I am feeling, share how I feel, but also talk of the hope I have in Christ.
My parents’ divorce is like a death, the death of a family that will no longer be and with that, death comes a lot of anger, hurt and confusion.
I am past a lot of the confusion and mostly out of the shock and denial stage, but the hurt and anger… its buried so deep within my heart, that I know only God can heal, only through Him can I forgive.
For a long time after my parents told me that they decided not to be married anymore I wanted someone there with at all time, to just hold me, yes my wonderful friends where there me and I love them for it, but they couldn’t be there all time. I would be angry at times that my best friend was 3,000 miles away when all I wanted was her here with me during my darkest hours.... But God ever patient and loving showed me that He was all I needed that it was Him alone that I could walk this road with, and it was defiantly a hard lesson to learn. Because I did not know how to walk alone with Him, this was all new to me I always wanted someone with me, just to listen, to just be there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I didn’t know how to react, what was going to happen, I know for the weeks after announcement I was living in shock… Even though there are times when I just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay, the most blessed times for me were and are when I was walking alone with my Jesus.
We all face giants in this life that feel bigger than our selves, bigger that what we feel are capable of handling, but there are two things I know for sure…
One is something that was shared with me by a dear friend and leader many years is that I am stronger than I know and God will never ever give me more than I can handle. (1 Corinthians 10:13- I know that it uses the word temptation, but I also know that it applies to the situations in our lives)
Two, I have a mighty, powerful, and loving God on my side where there is nothing too big to for Him and there is nothing in my life that hasn’t gone through His hands first.
(Ephesians 3:20, Jeremiah 29:11, Deuteronomy 31:8)
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