Joy & Thankfulness

Well I made it through finals!!! WOOHOO No school until February!!

JOY & THANKFULNESS

God has been speaking to my heart about these words for a couple of months now, but it has been hard to listen; how can I rejoice or be joyful or thankful about the circumstances in my life: my parents no longer love each other, I now only live just my mom… even though I know that God has a plan, how can I be joyful and thankful for it all? I may never be able to rejoice or be thankful for my parents’ divorce, but I can rejoice in the Lord, rejoice for His faithfulness, His promises, His Love, The many blessings He has placed in my life!

Its easy to be angry, its powerful, but oh so lonely and there is no peace in anger, but its safe… it is the reason there is a block wall around my heart, the reason its hard to let God heal me, because I know God’s healing is going to hurt. Pray for me as I allow God to break down the wall around my heart, as I truly allow the healing to begin in His time!

So today, even though I can’t rejoice or be thankful for what has taken place in my family, I will rejoice in the Lord for all He has given me!!!!

One More to Go!!!

One Final done one more to go!!!

So ready for Friday to be here!!! Yesterday and today I have not been motivated at all to do anything at work with the kids, so I have been letting my kids play more than usual. (yes they do still learn through play) They are already excited for Christmas to come so why go through the stress of trying to get them to sit down and do something!

I think by Friday I will be rolling out of work… all I have done since Monday is eat, and my tummy is none to happy right now, oh well it was worth it… I think.

Three more days and I will be on vacation!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!

One More Week!!!

One more week and the fall semester will be over and I will be on Christmas vacation, oh boy do I ever need a vacation!!!

Christmas will defiantly be different this year, my mom and older brother will be leaving Friday to spend Christmas in Tennessee with my grandparents, I don’t know what my dad is doing and my younger brother will be with his girlfriend and her family, not to worry I have plans I will be spending Christmas with my wonderful friends and their three very cute kids!!:D.

This is just another step in the new normal I must call life.

It’s so easy to stuff inside my true feelings about all of this, it’s easier than feeling the pain.

In spite of everything I have faced this past year, I am thankful for all that God has blessed me with; a wonderful job, a car that is paid for, and wonderful friends who have stood by me!

Is it Saturday Yet?????

Its been a rough week... As long as I dont think about it, and keep myself busy I am okay... but as soon as I start to think about him, I lose it, I feel as if I am now in the denial stage, (a stage i tend to like when bad things happen) its as if its all a bad dream, that he okay and not in the hospital never to come out again. Please continue to pray!

The highlight of my day was running into one of my wonderful friends and three adorable kids at Target!!!!!

One more day and the weekend will be.... a very busy weekend!!!!

Please Pray!!

A family friend is on the hospital and will not be coming out. He was in an ATV accident saturday he was thrown from his ATV landing on a rock that broke his helmet. There is no brain activity, the doctors say he will be gone by the end of the week. Its been a while since I have seen him, but since I found out all I can think about is all the good times that were spent at my grandmas house; he was always there for thanksgiving, christmas and varaies get togethers!!

Please pray for his family and especially my cousin who was one of his best friends!