... Past The Point

Of sheer exhaustion!!!

I haven't been able to sleep lately my mind is going all the time... I have come to a place in my life where I have come to terms with the new normal, I'm not saying that is doesn't hurt, I just know that it's the new normal, but there is still going through the hurt of the past, learning to move on and remember the good, its remember the good that hurts, I know that it was there, but its pushing away all the bad...

Father's day was sooo hard, all I could think about during church that day was the bad, all of the ways that my dad let me down...

I am also scared about bringing up all my memories because I don't know how I will feel, I have been doing soo good lately that I don't want to lose that feeling, how do I face the past without falling apart... how do I be okay with falling apart... maybe God wants me to fall apart so that He can pick up the pieces and put me back together they way He desires!!!!
So many changes ahead!!!!

3 more weeks and I will be 21!!!!

Please continue to pray for me!!!